Hey kids, do you want to go to a punk rock show?

I was sweaty.  I was sore as heck.  I had some beer spilled on me.  And my ears were ringing. Yes I was just at a Dropkick Murphys' show, and man I had forget what that feeling was like. I was right in the middle towards the front, not thinking that it would be as crazy as it got.  Last time, the Murphys played here, things weren't that bad, and I could stand and enjoy the show.  This time around, not so much.  It's been a while since I've had this feeling of just pure exhaustion after a show.

Actually, going into this night, I was more excited for Mr. Frank Turner. He's an English singer songwriter that I've been very into the past year.  He released the album, England Keep My Bones, which just hooked me.  Listen to the song "Peggy Sang the Blues" and you'll have this feeling of attachment to what he is singing.  It just was an album that was fitting into my life. I was  not disappointed with Frank, and couldn't believe how amazing his voice is sounding. He had great charisma on stage and just had a great backing band.  Good times.

But the Murphys just came me that feeling of what I want in my own music. I could only imagine having all those people at one of my own shows.  But I am at the point, where I question if I will even be playing music. I am still out here trying to lock down a drummer as things didn't work out previously. I wish I had the confidence and ability to play out on my own, but I don't want that aspect.

I want a bass player and a drummer backing me up with us creating together.  Nothing beats those first moments of just playing a bare bones song to turn it into something full blown that you can be proud of and take out for people to listen to.  You could see that emotion in the bands that I saw last night.  The bass player with the Murphys had a smile on his face the whole night as he was rocking out.  Frank Turner just had a joy to his face as he was making music. I wish I could remember the little spiel he gave towards the end about music because it just hit me, but of course I can't remember it right now.  But I know what music can do, which is truly connect with people in a way that's hard to do.